Cookies and Cookbooks

Ever have one of those days where you feel like you’ve been busy all day, but haven’t gotten a single thing done??

It’s been one of those days!

The cat decided he wanted to use the bathroom on our new bedspread this morning (perhaps he isn’t fond of down comforters?? :D). My morning was spent washing-and then re-washing-our blanket. I also managed to stomp around  the house and  mutter “Stupid cat” under my breath every few minutes. He spent the rest of his morning hiding under the couch like the shameful kitty he is.

All of this commotion made me late for a study date  at the library with a friend from class. Luckily, she was late too. That gave me tons of  time to browse books…and tons of time to get tons of books, hehe 😉

In case you can’t tell from that stack-I’m pretty obsessed with cooking lately.

After our study session, I decided to go for a short, flat run on the greenway. Mother nature has not been very kind this week. It was 12:30 and the tempurature was already up to 95!! Yikes.

I started out fine, but then my right leg started to to bother me. Ever since I did my last half-marathon, it has not been the same. It burns down the side of it and it continues to shoot pain every time I walk anywhere for the rest of the day 😦

I think I shall have to give running a rest for a while…until this ol’ leg of mine gets better.

Meet my bike:

I love her. She will be my fill-in for the next few weeks/months(??) <–I hope not! I gave her a go last Thursday night after work and it was only then how much I realized how much I had missed her.

She’s been stuck in the shed for the past few months. We brought her in, dusted her off, put some air in those tires and she was ready to go! It’s kind of nice to be able to have a workout inside, away from the near-100 degrees. Plus, I get to watch Weeds while I ride 😀

This afternoon, I ventured out to do the grocery shopping and now our house is full of healthy (and some not-so-healthy) items! Lunch literally consisted of an old dark chocolate granola bar that I found in “The Yuckiness”- a.k.a.  the bottom of my purse. And a naner that I had just bought from the produce section.

..and maybe a few handfuls of Kashi crackers while putting the goodies away.

Once the groceries were put away, I put on my cleaning gloves and set out to sanitize the kitchen. Those that have been reading for a while know that I am a freak about always having a clean kitchen.

I was set to spray the first counter when: ‘Knock knock knock’.

Ughhhhhhhhhhhh. <—said in my head as I walk towards the door with reluctance.

It was Jason’s aunt. She wanted to know if I could take her to the drug store. Mkay! The sanitizing will have to be put off. (As will the vacuuming, laundry and toilet scrubbing). ‘Twas a quick trip and I was back in no time.

Only when I got back, my body was taken over by a baking demon. What can I say? I was possessed. It made me cook Banana Chocolate Chip Oatmeal cookies and they were scrumptious…I hope he comes back to visit me soon 😉 Maybe next time he’ll have me cooking Julia Child’s Le Succes- Meringue Layer Cake with Butter-cream Frosting and Filling. Yes, yes. That would be nice 😀

(We keep our cookies in tupperware…cos we’re fancy like that)

Needless to say, I didn’t get a lot of housework done. But oh well! I’ll take oatmeal cookies and cookbook reading  over scrubbing toilets any day. I’m off to begin dinner! On tonight’s menu: Butter Bean burgers with chipotle sauce, along with roasted  parmasean asparagus and cajun red potatoes. YUM YUM.

Have a lovely week bloggies! See ya soon!

P.S. New Balance sent me some pretty awesome shoes to review, so be on the lookout for that! Also coming up: An Ode to Cooking 😀 G’night ya’ll!

Here Comes the Sun…

..“dooudoodoo..Here comes the suunn..and I say: It’s alright.”

I ❤ the Beatles.

Things are better my friends. I’m starting to feel normal again..and I think that perhaps I was just having one of those weeks where I was self-doubting everything about myself and my future…all because of what one person said. And that’s ridiculous.

For one person that doesn’t like me, there are plenty more that do like me 😀

I’ve decided to post, but I haven’t been taking pics of my food or of my runs! I can give you a Charleston recap and a few good things that have happened to me recently 😀

1. I won 3rd place in my age group in my second half-marathon last weekend!! It was a trail half marathon and I got lost about 5 times and ended up actually running 15-16 miles instead of 13.

2. I made the Dean’s List at school!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! That gave me a boost and totally got the “am I good enough?” thoughts out of my head. Of course I am good enough!!!!

3. Jason and I moved into a bigger place. Not sure if you knew this, but our old place was tiny tiny. We now have two bedrooms and two bathrooms, instead of one. Yay!

4. Jason continues to maintain his 4.0 at the university, and he made the Chancellor’s List this past spring. I’m aware that this isn’t exactly happening to me, but he is part of my life and I am so proud of him 😀

Okay, on to my Charleston recap! I shall do it in pics, because it would take wayyyyy to long to do with words 😉

Burger beer? No thanks!

On a carriage ride 🙂

..sadly, Forrest Gump was nowhere to be found 😦

Rainbow Row!

The best hushpuppies I’ve ever eaten. Period.

The first time I ever tried fried green ‘maters. Every trip should be a new food experience 😉 Loved ’em.

Cooper River Bridge!

Trixie got to come too!

She was a bit scared of the water at first haha. What a scaredy-dog 😀

They had a walkway on Cooper River Bridge..’twas very windy up there!

Okay, I have no idea what ship this was. Just thought it was cool-looking.

Stupid smudge on my camera ruined this lovely, artsy pic 😉

Among all of our outings, I also had time to make a curly rattail for myself. Very stylish, no? 😀

*Le sigh* It was a great trip and I love looking at the pics again! Hope you enjoy them too 😀

Okay bloggies, time for me finish my iced coffee,  set up some Katy Perry  on Pandora and clean my love shack ❤ Hope you all have a great weekend and thanks for being good listeners (and friends!).

See ya soon lovies 😀

Come Out, Come Out Wherever You Are

Ok.

I can’t put it off any longer.

I’ve been avoiding blogging. Actually, I’ve been avoiding a lot of things.

The past few weeks (months?? When is the last time I was on this thing?!) have been spent reading, doing puzzles, running, cooking, cleaning, spending time with the doggie and boyfriend…anything I can find or do to keep myself busy. Because when I’m not busy, I start to think…or, over-think I should say.

This morning I read Whit’s latest post and I realized: I’ve been feeling the exact same way, but just haven’t been brave enough to put it out there. But here it is: I’m depressed. Ugh….I hate typing that or even thinking it.

It makes me vulnerable. It makes me feel exposed.

I’m about to graduate college and my head has been swirling with feelings of self-doubt.

“Am I good enough to counsel someone about their lifestyle?”

“Who would want to come to me for advice?”

All of this because I had an arguement with someone that I thought knew me best. Turns out, I was wrong.

Sometimes it’s hard to get out of bed and go to work. Sometimes it’s hard not to just break out and cry for no reason. Sometimes it’s hard for me to enjoy the things I used to. I’m always ill or quiet..and if I’m not then I’m just pretending just to get me through the day.

I have Jason and I have my animals and my family. But I have no friends. UGH I hate typing that too. It sounds so pathetic and pitiful. I ask myself “How can you be lonely when you have people that love you unconditionally?” I still don’t know the answer to that question.

I keep thinking that I’ll meet new people once I start my internship at the Y, but who knows?

It’s hard to make friends once your older. And it really hurts when someone you spent your childhood with had the wrong impression of you the whole time. I try to pump myself up by repeating positive statements in my mind, but they always come out like a question instead of a statement: I’m a cool person to know, right? I’m fun and a good listener, right?

This post is making me so uncomfortable. I guess that’s why I’ve been avoiding it.

There are a lot of things I am blessed with. Good health, a wonderful mom and boyfriend, my dog that follows me wherever I go, my ability to think freely and speak freely (though it’s not always easy) and more importantly, my ability to write freely…because without that ability, I’m not sure where I would be.

I will try to be myself again. It feels a little unnerving to get this off my chest, but it feels a bit freeing at the same time.

I just want to be happy again. Fully and completely happy…